I am sitting in a library across the Bridge from the Coove getting work done while my boys practice Aikido. I think I should be progressing with my Aikido too, but how will I fit that in as well as the countless other actions I need to get done before official teaching hours start with my boys.
In the past month I’ve gotten in about 4 real “workouts” for myself.
The frustration around the circumstances of closing my studio earlier this year is back. I feel the ceiling once again as I grow my personal training but have to turn people away because I cannot serve group classes without a bigger location.
I contemplate opening another location but still have to deal with the lease and repercussions of the discrepancy of 1500 square feet being measured in a variety of ways, none of them being actual square footage of the space.
This energy fills up my body and consumes my mind if I let it.
I feel stuck.
What I teach my clients and would suggest to anyone when they feel stuck is to start with CHI.
Although before that it would need to be AWARENESS. That action of PRESENCE. The actual practice of being PRESENT always shifts the CHI.
I am aware of the light and my body in a different way just by taking this action.
In fact, it seems as if the room is quieter, calmer now. I reckon it is actually my mind and energy that is calmer. I feel my feet. I sit taller. I breathe more deeply. I feel a sensation of gratitude and a tingle moves up and down my spine and down my arms and in to the key board.
I feel the stuckness as a shifting. I am PRESENT.
I-INTENTION (al) I intend to lead a life I love. To raise the over all vibration of the planet through my service. I have other intentions that are specific but at the moment I focus in on the intention related to Yogilachi and my dream for 10,000 strong globally shifting the outcome of this planet by how they lead their lives, their health by reclaiming their mind, body and food supply. By bringing vibrations to love and above.
For now I can imagine this and it is beautiful.
I now OBSERVE. I notice. My bum is stiff and tingly from sitting in the hard plastic chairs. The back of my head tingles. I watch as the letters come on the screen in a delayed way. No judgement. No good/bad/right/wrong. Just observations.
I continue to observe and subtlety I am aware of the lightening up I feel. The laughter that bubbles up that tells me I am releasing the energy that has kept me stuck. Stuck in a thinking that does not serve me. I no longer desire a baquette smothered in butter and a bag of chips – my reactive comfort food. In fact I don’t feel like I am depleted or need food. My energy has shifted. I feel like moving. I sit taller. I shift my pelvic bones so I am up on my sits bones. That releases my spine. My vibration is higher. Closer to the LOVE that I prefer.
TOOLS. I know that I need food and that is a valid tool to restore my body. But I will choose the delicious green salad with grilled chicken that I planned for. I will lovingly prepare this meal and sit down and enjoy it after I pick up my boys from Aikido.
I will get to the Aikido studio early so I can stand on the earth and practice Yogilachi Flow and Glow – the blend of Yoga, Pilates and Tai Chi that has now become my regular work out of choice.
So that is what I did today when I felt stuck.
What do you do when you feel stuck?